By
Henry Karlson
July14,
2020
When we
pursue holiness, we are tempted to think of ourselves as being better than we
really are. Pride develops, and through that pride, become unruly towards
others, trying to force them to comply with our whims. While some people might
do so, those who do not receive our wrath. We become vindictive, thinking they
deserve every kind of punishment which we can give them because they do not
recognize our greatness. We become so absorbed by ourselves that lose sight of
God. We might not notice it at first.
But slowly, all so slowly, his presence recedes, until at last, it is as if he
is gone. Then we realize what has happened. We have received our reward. We
turned away from God as we idolized ourselves, and so all that we have left is
that idol which we propped up. God has left us with what we want, which is
ourselves. We have lost sight of God. Thus NikitasStithatos, explains, many who
begin spiritual warfare, seeking after God, lose him because of the way they
engage that warfare:
Benjamin West: Joshua Crossing the River Jordan with the Ark of the Covenant / Wikimedia Commons
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God deserts
those engaged in spiritual warfare for three reasons: because of their
arrogance, because they censure others, and because they are so cock-a-hoop
about their own virtue. The presence of any of these vices in the soul prompts
God to withdraw; and until they are expelled and replaced by radical humility,
the soul will not escape just punishment.[1]
In all three incidences, the spiritual seeker sets themselves up against God through their pride. Arrogance arises when people think of themselves to be so great they think others should acknowledge that greatness; undue censuring of others is a the result of people who think they are so great they can and should judge others instead of themselves; and finally, being so self-assured of one’s own virtue only indicates how far one is from true virtue, for humility will always be found in those who are truly virtuous.
God is said
to withdraw from the souls of those who are attached to vices. This is because
sin creates, as it were, a barrier or a veil between God and the one who sins.
In actuality, God does not withdraw. God is everywhere present and fills all
things. God does not change. But we change. We create the condition for
ourselves as to whether or not we experience his presence. If we are prideful,
if we are boastful, if we are judgmental, if we are arrogant and unruly, if we
lift ourselves up and so glorify ourselves, we get so lost in ourselves, and so
God is lost to us.
We should
not exalt ourselves, rather, we should let God do it for us. “Humble yourselves
therefore under the mighty hand of God, that in due time he may exalt you” (1
Ptr. 5:6 RSV). This exaltation from God comes through our union with him. Its
source and foundation is God himself. When we humble ourselves, we cast aside
the veils which hinder God’s presence from our lives. Then God can arise and
his enemies, that is, all our sins, can be scattered. Having nothing left to
separate ourselves from God, we will find ourselves united with him, and in
that unity, we will know true glory, a glory which pride tries to imitate but
fails to achieve because of the infinite distance between created and uncreated
glory.
Just as our
relationship with God is hindered by our internal disposition, so that we find
ourselves putting veils over God and we lose sight of God himself, our internal
disposition also affects the way we interact with others. We must understand
that we are the cause of our own vices.
If we unduly lust after someone, it is because of our own internal
disposition, not because of the people we meet:
Just as
seasickness is due, not to the sea’s nature, but to the already existing
disorder of the body’s humours, so the soul’s confusion and turmoil are due,
not to the beauty of the countenance in the person that it perceives, but to
its pre-existing evil disposition. [2]
The same
problem which causes us to lose sight of God causes us to also misinterpret
others; we lose sight of who they are and we see them, rather, for how our
sinful inclinations makes us perceive them. Everywhere we go, everywhere we
look, we see our own internal disposition, our own unconscious tendencies,
reflected back at us. That is, our concupiscence influences how we relate to
others. And insofar as we reify ourselves in pride, insofar as we glorify
ourselves and revel in that self-made glory with arrogance, we will never be
able to see through the veil of sin and the horrors which it establishes for us
in our lives. This is the punishment which we make for ourselves. So long as we
reify the self, as it is with all its concupiscence, we create our own hell; to
overcome that concupiscence, to destroy the unconscious tendencies which lead
us away from God, we must overcome the self in which they are found.
Of course,
we cannot do this alone, for if we try, we will only find the ego which we
destroy in one moment reveal itself in a new form within us in the next moment.
That self, which we thought we killed, reincarnates, creating a new form for
itself to misdirect us and lead us away from God. It will not necessarily be in
the same form. It will give us new, desires, and place between us and God, and
those around us, different kinds of veils than those which were there before.
So long as our focus is on ourselves by ourselves, no matter how much we try to
eliminate the self, it finds a new way to come back, perhaps greater than
before. We need outside help. Thus, we need grace; we need the purifying fire
of God’s love. To experience that love, we must turn to love and walk the path
of love ourselves. Love will meet love. Our love will connect itself to God’s
infinite love. Then, and only then, can the self be cast off, put to the fire
of God’s love, and the veils will once and for all be taken down. We will have
no self to hold to in order to be arrogant, no self to hold to in order to be
prideful, and so no self to put between us and God, because we are so focused
on love, we will lose sight of the self, and so no longer seek to be attached
to it.
[1] NikitasStithatos, “On the Practice of the Virtues,” in The
Philokalia: The Complete Text. Volume Four. Trans. G.E.H. Palmer, Philip
Sherrard, Kallistos Ware et. al. (London: Faber and Faber, 1995), 91 [#47].
[2] NikitasStithatos, “On the Practice of the Virtues,” 91-2 [#51].
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